Kaylyn's World

So in all honesty I've always wanted a mom. A real mom. One who loves and supports me. One who knows things about me. Definition of a real mom (according to me): a woman who takes time to talk to you, support and encourage you, a woman who knows who you are and what you like. The most important thing in my mind is that they show they care about you even when you piss them off. The closest thing I ever had to a real mom was April. She was my stepmom, and she knew me since I was one. She might not have been the best to me, but she was the best I had for a while. April would make time for me, know who I was and what I liked which is more than I can say for my biological mother. Even though April abused the beejesus out of me and threatened me on occasion she was still the best I had for a while. Ms. Kalea was an amazing mom in my life too. She taught me discipline, she cared about what I did, and what I liked as well. She was amazing. But my dream for a real mom wasn't answered un...

Inspiration lost. Time of death. *checks watch* 1:40AM. So sad. *places Inspiration's hands together gently on her chest as a tear slides down my cheek* :p I don't know what it is, but these days I cannot get inspired to write even though I would love to finish Head Hunters. I'm like three or four chapters away from finishing it. I'm so close these days yet so far away, and it kinda kills me. Sometimes when I can't write I feel like I let Mom and Richard down. I mean they love my writing so much. So I feel kinda bad sometimes. But what's weird is I usually get inspired by movies and such, and lately that's just not happening. I don't mind taking breaks from writing, but if the break's forever that is going to kinda bug me. I mean I am an author. Not someone who wants to be one and doesn't have the heart to succeed. When I want to succeed I will! ... *BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! BEEP!* Good news everyone! I got my inspiration back thanks to Mom. Well...

I have discovered a writing secret lately, and I'm very impressed with this one. When I started writing when I was eleven it was just for fun. As I got older writing became a solace for me. But now writing is a hobby/work. It's- I can't decide I think it's both. I love writing. Creating worlds. Creating characters. All of it is so fun. Plus, since I write scifi it's so much more fun than having such a mundane life. I love making powerful female protagonists because they can always do things I can't. But at the same time writing is so much work because as the author I have to remember every little detail or risk being a crappy author... Like I love the Maximum Ride series, but it seemed like James Patterson forgot that the Flock got more powers in The Final Warning because that was never mentioned again. As an author I think it's important to bring up important details like that again. That's why it's so much harder to write Escaping Hell, and that...

Everyone needs to make tough decisions in their life, and however they make their decision defines who they are as a person. There are two decisions I have to make that will define me as a person starting school in September and saving a child from a dangerous situation. If I start school this September it'll show hard-working I am and how willing I am to get my degree. I've wanted to go to Full Sail for years now, and now I may have a shot to get in. I know it's pretty expensive, but this seems like the best program for me. With the Full Sail program I have one class a month. I love that because that means I still have time to play with Annaise while still getting my homework done on time. It's not too stressful. Plus, the best things in life don't come easy or cheap. I should know because publishing my first book wasn't cheap or easy but it sure was rewarding. I've been doing everything I can to get in. I filled out the paperwork, I'm getting the docu...