Kaylyn's World

So I'm not getting married for years. But I have been thinking a lot about my wedding day like most if not all women do. Richard proposed to me last Christmas, and it was the most amazing time of my life. I've never been happier than I have been with him. Ever since he proposed I've been thinking about the wedding. And even though we're not getting married until I'm over the age of twenty-five we already picked a date and a venue. I'm not going to give away all the details because I feel uncomfortable with that, but I will say we're getting married on my father's birthday in the future at Thornwood Castle in Tacoma, WA. I've already picked out my maid of honor and a couple of bridesmaids (Twin, Sammy, and Ice.) A sister of mine, Ashlynn wants to be the wedding planner, and I'm totally cool with that. Richard's father will be walking me down the aisle. Little Annaise will be the adorable flower girl. And Ethan, my younger brother, will honor m...

My dad always said, "When you have friends you don't have to talk every day even for months, but when you do start talking again it's like no time has passed." I realized over the years he was right of course, but now I'm starting to regret that I don't have the time to talk to some friends. I have some friends who are like family; Twin, Sammy, Ashlynn, Adam, and Brad. There used to be one more, but he was a horrible influence on my life, so I rightfully kicked him out of my life. If he still cries because he misses me then he should have changed into a respectful man. *shrugs* Anyway, I talk to Twin and Sammy often enough. I wish I could talk to Ashlynn and Adam more, but I understand they're busy. Then there's Brad who updates his Facebook status enough, but almost every time he updates it he seems depressed. Brad recently added a new entry to his blog, and I red most of it, but I DID read the post added before it. He had mentioned something about a...

Today I saw my therapist again. I find that for me therapy helps me a lot. As I'm growing up and changing into a beautiful adult I like knowing that I'm handling things in the best way I can. Today my therapist and I talked about my Twin (best friend named Christina). I was really proud of her because she graduated today, and she's moving in with a wonderful family (family like friends that she sees as family). My therapist wanted to make sure I'm happy for her. Of course, I'm happy for her. I'm glad that my best friend is doing so well. In all honesty, I just can't wait to meet her in person because she's going to be my maid of honor. And I can't wait to meet one of my bridesmaids in person, Sammy. Sammy and Twin are like sisters to me, so I definitely want them to be involved in my wedding. Also, someone else whose like family that I can't wait to meet in person is Ashlynn whose going to be my wedding planner. Also, I talked to my therapist abo...

So it's Mother's Day, and I want to first say Happy Mother's Day to all the Mom's out there and the Dad's playing the role of Mom. I decided to write a tribute to my moms today; the ones that have always been there for me. First, to Ms. Kalea, my best friend's mom. I met Ms. Kalea when I was eight years old, and she's been a mother to me ever since. I can thank her for helping me with self-discipline. Without her I wouldn't try to be the absolute best I could be. Because of her I exercise every day trying to make my legs stronger. I always push myself to study the best I can until I start college. She has raised me very well ever since we met, and even if we don't talk every day I will always tribute my can-do attitude to her. She always has and always will push me to be my best. I love you very much, Ms. Kalea. Next, to MamaChico who I call Mom every day. She's my fiance's mother, and she's the best. She may not feel the best, but she ...

It wasn't until after my appointment with my therapist that I wanted to write this. I haven't thought to write this before because I was trying to protect myself from demons, but I think it needs to be said now. So with all the stress that has always been in my life; be it the abusive mother figures, the mother who stopped caring about her kids forcing me to step up my game as a mother figure at the age of eleven or whatever, and everything else I lived through. No matter what happened in my life I just handled it. I never fell into alcohol abuse or drug abuse. To be honest there have been times where I thought, "How the hell haven't I ended up doing drugs or drinking my problems away?" But the answer's very simple: I've got a good head on my shoulders, always have. When I was growing up in my mother's house and around her family I was always put down. I was too ugly. I was broken. I never worked hard enough to please anyone, and I was too fat to them....

As everyone may already know I, Kaylyn Gabbert, in real life have Cerebral Palsy(CP) that affects the commands that my brain sends to the legs, and none of my main female protagonists have ever had this. Pandora started out with CP, but she didn't continue to have it for reasons that will be explained more in Escaping Hell. Well, I have created a character in Head Hunters that can't walk very well named Natsu. I had no idea why I created him for a while, but I think I kind of started to understand why I wrote him in. I think when I created Natsu I was thinking of what's going on with my niece, Annaise. My niece is two years old right now, and she's not walking yet. The whole family is trying to find out why that is now. But when I was writing Natsu who can walk but not very well I was thinking of her. I have so much faith that she will one day be able to walk. I've had many dreams about her being older and able to walk, so when I created Natsu I was thinking about h...